Work ended | Monday, July 1, 2013
Today is the first proper day which i ended work. Lets forget about the weekend hehehe.
Ended work alrdy! 6 months alrdy! These 6 months flew by like nobody business.
But i really miss these:
I miss waking up early in the morning, feeling groggy and dun feel like waking up.
I miss rushing hell like mad cos everytime i cfm late for morning shifts.
I miss rushing my makeup cos always wanna rush for my bus.
I miss being late for almost every morning shift. But the irony is, I will be early for OT in the morning yet late for morning shift. Its still the same timing.
I miss slacking like crazy in the morning cos always no mood for work.
I miss eating my breakfast in the office for fear of getting hungry before lunch.
I miss disturbing everyone in the morning for morning chats. Regardless whether project team or AA side.
I miss sleeping very late cos i can wake up late for my noon shift.
I miss the constant swap for noon shift cos i always dun wanna wake up in the morning. And get more money cos of the allowances.
I miss having dinner in the office, the inappropriate dinner of biscuits, cup noodles and just junk food. Now that im having proper dinner at home nowadays, i miss having junk food instead. And getting hungry after i reach home, rather the feeling of not feeling full. And fattening supper.
I miss the slacking at night. Especially the time from 8-9. totally slacking and not doing much work. And disturbing everyone again cos too bored and tired. And also surfing around hehhe.
I miss swapping our shifts like crazy until the schedule isnt anything like our original schedule. Poor TL had to help us update and stuff.
I miss swapping and getting AL like crazy and weekend are rather quite disaster cos got ppl on leave or something. And having to OT sometime cos not enough ppl yet the work is still overwhelming.
I miss the slacking during weekend. Totally slack and my almost 2 hrs of lunch at places like nex, singpost and went to the malay market on my final weekend. Too nua for work.
I miss the food at these awesome places like my youtiao.
I miss surfing the net everyday and beware of the surroundings cos for fear of being caught. Not only caught once alrdy teehee. Must be blacklisted alrdy hahha.
I miss listening to songs, radio and humming the tune of the song. Ppl who suddenly come over to give approval code and stuff must think that im crazy. And random songs that played on the radio which i know. And thats when i found this awesome song by kim jongkoon. Heheh ahh so handsomee~ And also reviewing the comments for running men episodes recently.
I really miss quite alot of things from work. Its really quite an awesome 6 mths working at SH project team. Though I really kinda complain alot about the people, work and stuff there. But i know i cant stay there for long cos of school and my hol. I really wanna desperately leave in order to enjoy my hol. Cos i know work take away alot of time. I dun really have time to meet my frens for dinner and stuff cos of my noon shifts, one weekend is down due to work.
Now that i alrdy left, i will promise myself that i will enjoy my remaining hol to the maximum before sch starts. Once sch starts i gonna die againn. I really dun like to study :x
| Sunday, May 19, 2013
Its another journey in my life before i head out for the next.
But this journey reallyreally makes me very tired, very tired of facing work, very tired of finding motivation to carry on, but most importantly, im REALLY very tired of facing people! Their judgement, gossips, reactions and stuff.
I may have become too pampered in my past 18 years of my life.
but in just this short 5-6 mths, I finally know why adults dread people, work!
I really nid to learn how to handle all these shit, being arrowed, doing things which idk why im helping and such, and learn how to handle my mistakes.
in the beginning, this gave me the feeling of satisfaction. the joy of learning more and more stuff, becoming more experienced, making new frens.
but now, im starting to doubt myself, my abilities. What have I been doing for these past months?
till recently, was feeling more dejected and lost. Im starting to feel distrust in people, though i know they are still really nice.
i guess after witnessing all the bad things about one towards the other, i guess im afraid.
because im starting to feel that im falling into the predicament that one has been through before.
I admit the reason that i dun wanna leave is because im too emotional. i cant bear to give up.
But now, idk if i should still hold the thought and continue, or just leave.
一走了之真的可以让我解脱吗？还是压紧牙根得忍耐下去？Its still my responsible afterall :x
| Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Finally graduated
from tj officially ytd. It seems that these 2 years had past too fast. It only
seems that I came into tj as a freshly j1 ytd and now my journey in tj is
already coming to the end.
I can still
rmb the joy of being posted to tj cos tj was my first choice of sch. I didn’t regret
choosing tj instead of other better schools in terms of results even though I could
cos I know tj is suited for me. And tj was my choice cos it’s the nearest
school from my hse. Not that near since I still need about half an hour of
travel. Hehehh in the expected events during As I still have to come to tj for
exams xD Others can tell me all the cons about tj, like its so cheena and their
uniform sux. To me, it doesn’t matter. I was from a cheena sec sch and I really
dun mind ugly uniforms since everyone else is gonna wear them too. Anw we only
need to wear uniform once a weekk, other than events like exams.
I can still
rmb the first day of orientation when I looked so lost and innocent hehhe xD I didn’t
know anyone from my OG and was just hoping that time would pass quickly. But to
my horror my orientation last for a few weeks. In the end I got to know more
frens and got to know more about tj and had so much fun in events like Onites
and mass dance at sundec. Even though we are still not very close in the end
but its alright(: It was still a wonderful first time memories.
Then after
orientation, we got to choose our subjects and posted to our CG. I chose bcme
in the end. I know bio was my first choice and I was just thinking of choosing
between history and econs, which luckily I didn’t choose history. Imagine
history with bio, my brain can burst sia.
Then got to
know my CG-18/11. Was kinda sian cos I know no one again. Okay I know some cos
yunwei and glenn was my sec4 classmates and I know guier through other frens. Its
still a new experience afterall. I can still rmb our first CG bonding day where
we played double wacko before we move on to proper events as an icebreaker
game. My partner was yeetin and seriously I got confused all around cos I sux
at rmbing names and there was three –ting(s) in our class. After that, I can
still rmb where we move to lt3 to meet our civics tutor- miss ong. And all the
icebreaker games where we move arnd the sch for treasure hunt. Heheh but I stayed
in the lt for other purposes and for the aircon xD And games like contact and
food trail where we go out to eat. The most awkward one was the name and three
things about you game. Like making a dog tag of ourselves xD Got to know more
frens there. Gradually I get to know more about my classmates and idk when
there is two major cliques formed. One which I was in is the more quiet girls
gang and the others in the other clique. But still I dun mind cos even if we
are separated, I still find it a joy to talk to everyone cos they are all so
friendly and nice.
And of cos
another memorable memories would be pw, although the work really sux big time. I
can still rmb our first meeting in the class when we just know our groups,
kinda awkward and stuff. And the few meetings when we still dun really know one
another. I still rmb searching for risks of sun bathing, contacts, lezik and
such. Till later we cfm our topic and area-online shopping. I also dunno how I ended
up being the leader of the grp but it was a wonderful memory and I was glad
that I was the leader of such lovely group. And all our middle filled arguments
about the project, figuring out miss ong’s handwriting and our opposed argument
which we clearly defined ‘it’s a girl and guy thing’. Cant really rmb much from
the beginning till we started chionging
our wr, pilot test and op. And visiting each other hse for our weekly meetings
and my weekly love msg for the grp asking them whose hse was free for us to
ransack xD And our pw-ing with TJ086 and of cos our sleepover at ritesh hse. After
wr, chionging op like no mama. Giving each other comments on presentation
style, preparing op rehearsals for our subject tutors. Still rmb once how we
were super desperated cos our wr deadline was nearing yet our wr was still like
shit so we decided to split into 2- me and liting go to sch for op rehearsal
while jolene and ritesh stayed at home to chiong wr and other misc stuff cos
yongxiang was sick and we wanted him to rest since he worked hard as our wr
chief editor. Then zoom, it was op and our skit time. Rmb how we used to laugh
so hard cos our skit was just too funny that we cant help but laughed in the
midst of rehearsal. And during the official one, kinda quiet cos everyone was
just too serious. And all my lack of sleep when I slept at ½ and wake up at 4/5
to finish wr and op stuff. It was my first time sleeping so little even though
theres sch nxt day and lucky I didn’t die or have to depend on coffee:D And our post pw celebrations at teo heng and of cos our bbq celebration with CG18/11. Memories in TJ088 forms quite a large amount of my memories in tj:D
And of cos
time in guitar cannot be neglected either. I dun really have much in guitar cos
I wasn’t so keen in the cca cos sometimes it really makes me bored. But of cos,
times together when we prac for our concert, both in last yr and this yr was
kinda memorable. Prac together as an ensemble even though I was half dead from
lessons in the morning and prac all the way till at night where I cant even see
the road cos they turned off the lights D: kinda bad to be like half blind when
its so dark arnd. And like forever, cca starts so late and Im always dismissed
super early. Rmb studying and doing work in sch and keep asking michelle to
stay back with me xD prac all the way till night was seriously no joke when I still
have a lot of things to do when I reached home. Was really dead beat and tired
during the concert period yet I still have to juggle homeworks and tests, which
sometimes I just ignored academics cos I was just too tired. All the concerts
were so great. And of cos times during guitar camp was one of the most
unforgettable times in guitar. Who would have thought that it was a stupid PT
camp when we are actually one of the performing arts cca? Did exercise so much
that I think I didn’t even do so much for my past 10 years of education. And it
was really bonding time even though I dead halfway through the camp xD
And all the
small memories together in class: switching off during miss ong class, mr lim
jokes and funny accent and all the funny words like Dhoom, CATionMEOW, come
again go away and many more. Certainly make lessons more interesting. Mrs goh
and her weird pronounciation of words like pythagorus’ theorem, paragrallogram
which pawan never fails to catch it. Miss bay and Mr maniam ultimate joke about
match-making them together when both already have their own boyfriend and
girlfriend. And all the digress in class about these 2 teachers, lessons was
like half jokes, half proper teaching and learning. And all my lovable
classmates who like to cheese funny jokes in our class. Laughter never fails to
die down in CG18/11. And I especially love how our class bond together in times
of need like the teachers’ day and such. Still rmb how we were all so anxious
and stayed together when one of our classmate was admitted to the hospitals. And
all the sporting events which we bonded together like road run, track and field
meet and sports day when it was the first time when our class won something,
may not be the first place but it was satisfying. We earned udder’s voucher
which we went to enjoy after our CIP in nov last year:D And our everyday break
time sitting at the staircase near the GNC this year with the clique.
I can just
go on and on and on about these special memories in tj. 2 years may not be a
lot, but its just good enough to create such wonderful memories which I can
bring with me as I grow up and we all graduated and separate. Academics was
never joking cos it was hard to survive the rigour here in jc life. But still,
im glad that I have grown up and achieved the excellence that I always wished
for. And I dun mind sharing here, its to ace my biology because of my passion
for it:D But notes aside, im really glad to stay here in tj, CG18/11 because
they are my family, my shelter whenever I feel desperated because I have my
wonderful frens to lean on.
We may have
graduated from tj but the special memories and friendship can never end. As we
are nearing to the end of our jc life with the big As, lets all aspire to do
well and achieve the goals and dreams that we want to. Lastly, wanna thank all
my friends, CG18/11, tutors for making my journey in tj one of the most most
memorable I ever had:D
(Finally
this post is coming to the end. Gonna chiong hard for As so probably this blog
is gonna die till I dunno when. Survive everyone! Be of selective advantage and
survive till reproductive age. Live up to the bio dept quotation: Reverse
transcribe all the Us to all As:D)
| Monday, August 6, 2012
i know i hvnt been posting for long. but when life sux cos its just about mugging, i really dun have the mood to do anything. haizz life is such a no-life these days.
everyone is nagging that just tahan for afew months and you will enjoy later, but i reallyreally kinda cant stand it. sometimes i really wonder if thats signs of depression yet i got no one to talk to )):
okayy jct is over veryvery long ago. my study break for prelims is coming in a few weeks.
but it makes me reflect wat im still lacking of. not say that effective and most of the times it just makes me feel disappointed.
that was my best effort. i swear i did study my hell, liver, kidney or watever out and these are the kind of results that i gotten? wat happened to the definition of 'effort'?
on the positive side, im happy that my maths and econs did improve, esp my maths. and kinda happy that i just passed gp. ehhh not much expectation.
but wat happened to my best 2 subjects? they reallyreally drop quite alot. such that all my 4 H2 subjects roughly had the same scores and grades.
and then with everyone hashing on us for doing so poorly. it really makes me wonder wats my purpose of studying since i hvnt really find the goal of my life. for now the goal is just get the hell out of A levels.
and with these few weeks of non-stop revision tests remedials and such, cant help but feeling very helpless of doing so poorly in everyone. i hvnt been passing my bio revision tests and mind you, its only passing when im supposed to be aiming to be one of the highest. okayy i did just pass one of the test. haizz cant someone just slap my face and give me the motivation to seek knowledge? and seriously not just the knowledge but the skills to apply which i severely lack of. how to survive in this world?
and with these millions of tests/ revision exercise that im supposed to study for, i cant really plan out my study timetable when im just studying the things that are tested. i really wanna the time to organise the topics and subjects to study. but thats during the study break, which i really wonder if i have the time for. T.T
and im so sorry for all these emo posts because studying has already drive me nuts. everyday i just reached home, hugged my lecture notes, prac and sleep. i really wanna a breather but im worried that it would stop my momentum esp im easily distracted.
but just tahan for afew more mths. JUST 4 MORE MONTHS AND IM OUT OF THIS STUPID VICIOUS CYCLE, i swear i dun wanna to study so hardcore anymore T.T
| Saturday, June 30, 2012
ohyayy i kept to my promise that i wont whine on my blog about the pain of mugging.
but thats not the main point. hehhe even though mugging this whole month really drives me crazy and i wonder wats the purpose of mugging so hard.
the thing is, JCT IS FINALLY OVER!
on the other hand its just means a step closer to prelims and As. but imagine all the freedom and slack time i will get after this stupid mugging shit.
ehh as usual, i dunno mug so hard for wat. my results also wont reflect the mark that i deserve for mugging so hard. probably nid more prac and such.
after this whole long week of jct and ohyeah, last week too, i finally get to rest and such.
after last week chem part1 and bio test, fly away to msia to attend a wedding.
and seriously, i get to enjoy my time slacking there and studying for only 2 hrs out of the 2 days xD
the wedding wasnt that nice, the food wasnt that nice and the entertainment too.
but wat i enjoy most is the slacking and shopping time(:
after that, came back on sun, study gp for only 20min then sleepp:D
after this week of tests, went to the zoo with gh mic jh val drey hil to celebrate:D
it sure was an eventful day. after the chem paper, was so busy settling this and that.
at first was kinda disappointed that we didnt get the free tix and discount. didnt wanna spend that much to go in for that few hrs.
but after that didnt wanna waste the time to come zoo, so we just spent. and yayy to some member thingy we got 30% discount!
ohwell, the zoo still the same old thing ever since i last come about half yr ago.
amazing animals, amazing shows, amazing frens to spam photo with and just the wonderful time tgt exploring the zoo, relaxing after the tough days mugging.
hiyo lucky we didnt spend the whole day there, half day alr tired like some shit alr.
then all the gossips, chatting, spamming photos before we go home.
awesome time tgt on long bus journey to chat and gossip like no mama. i really miss the times when i had last time to chat with them back in ahs and such.
i really hope we will stay as awesome as this and just as close too!
and really, i think i kinda have no life. damnn i dunno wat to do after the exams and mugging im just stoning nowhere on my com.
and yayy to my shopping date. i wanna spend my money and buy the stuff i wanna:D
till the results come back nxt week, not looking forward to that.
| Friday, May 25, 2012
omgomg long time no post. guitar concert was like 4weeks ago hahhaha
but seriously, life after guitar wasnt that great, just more time for me to chiong studies and tutorials. and also more time to practice on afew qns on various subjects.
todayy, the last day of the term (Y)
not say exactly that great since it just means mugging all the way till JCT, then mug again like no mama. life is just about studying, damn sick of it.
but i can get to sleep:D and certainly more time to complete my revision.
hopefully it wont be like mct, almost no time to finish content, totally no time to prac.
but this exciting last day of sch ended with 2 stuff: floorball finals and my learning journey to the army openhse.
okayy, floorball finals arent exactly the concern. just proud of them, my sch, TJ spirit blahhh..
even though both girls and boys lost, im sure everyone is gonna to be super proud of them:D hopefully there would be a full day or at least a half day (on appropriate days) for these achievements. not that great achievements but we deserve the break after all these exciting matches and concerts.
more of that, the learning journey was so much more awesome.
not only it provides more chance for us to bond as a class, the stuff at the army openhse are supersuper cool~ and crowded with students too.
the bus trip was kinda awesome cos we spam photos. ookayy no link but all the icebreakers i guess?
jokes all arnd the bus. and its super weird for miss ong to say jokes cos it brings the GP feeling? ahh watever. and i really dun understand much/know about it alr about her jokes. okayy generation gap?
the bus was kinda weird to turn into some weird corner just to collect freebies.
but yayy freebies:D like chips, food, water and stuff. but it adds on to the weight of my bag. ahhh they should make learning journey convenient and not carrying our heavy bag all arnd. esp walking all arnd the F1 pit.
then we reached at F1 pit, debrief and given the chance to roam arnd.
since we wanted to try the wet rides, we sacrificed the sort-of-NDP show.
okay im not that interested in all the stupid noisy weapons and such.
first we went as a class to try rock climbing/abseiling/flying fox. okayy i didnt try cos im kinda scared of heights:/ but kinda cool to see the awesome climbers, omg super fast. and awkwardly looking at miss ong at her abseiling. kayy watever.
then went to try the wet rides. freaking wet omg cos i was sitting at the side. my bag was super wet and my papers are alittle wet D: but kinda awesome and cool.
then ya walkwalkwalkwalk arnd, nothing much to do so we separated.
soo went to eat icecream then some ppl went shooting. hahha then walked to the mrt tgt with some guys.
then much coincidentally met miss ong walking outside the F1 pit._. in the first place we shouldnt go separate ways. anw we can go home before 5 hahhhha.
then took mrt home tgt. omg since dunno how long ago since i last took the mrt. lollol im mugging at home, just joking~ mainly taking bus arnd.
since my rounds of mugging is gonna start soon, i guess this blog will be dead?
but no guarantee hehhehe im always tend to complain alot, esp about the purpose of my life mugging nonstop when i started studying. haizz the self-denial and procrastination xD
okayy since i enjoyed so much today, i shall enjoy more tmr during CO concert before mugging my heads into the horrible lecture notes DD:
| Sunday, April 29, 2012
AURORA XVI : FANTASY just ended ytd.
The concert was really great, esp towards the ending ;p
then i shall not blabber about how intensive prac this week was cos seriously, had prac everyday. but i will miss these times, esp now since we stepped down alr T.T
and not to mention how screwed our time of hotel california with mr lieuw. omg totally screwed till we decided to change the score like 2/3 days prior the concert. though its not everything thats changed but we nid more efforts in learning new parts, how to get in and all the beats stuff which i guess i still hvnt much figure it out.
hey i just said i dun wanna blabber and i went on.__.
well, the worst is over so lets forget about it:D
sooo, the day started with rehearsals in sch since morning.
its just play as an ensemble, prac grp piece like a million times, travelling all arnd to go for dry-run, find nice place to prac. hahhaha and the weather was super hot D:
till dinner came. hehehe then went to change and makeup. but since im supposed to help out at the reception, so cant makeup yet.
actually work at the reception isnt as fun as i think. although like slack there till ppl come, but i have to miss all the performance during the first half of the concert cos i cant go in the audi to watch the wonderful performance D:
but not bad ehh, got alot of business there. till interval came and went to prepare, makeup and prac for the final time, which wasnt that great since its so noisy and theres lots of distraction.
after the interval, ITS HOTEL CALIFORNIA TIME~
hehehhehe even though i didnt play that greatly, still stoned at some parts, its really quite soft i cant hear much since im all the way at the side D: hahhaha our not-quite-normal-distribution seating arrangement. but overall, i think we did great.
then changed and prepare for the ensemble piece. omg idk so fast sia i changed alr then must go prepare at the backstage alr D:
sooo the curtains open, and ITS PLINK PLANK PLONK AND IO CHE TIME~
okay idk that watever greek title of the song. hahhah
plink plank plonk was quite great, almost like rehearsal de standard?
butbutbut im quite surprised, io che finally starts and ends nice for once lehhh.
and i finally found the passion for these music which i tot its buried under somewhere and i could nvr feel the passion of the song. but i feel it, not say totally but towards the ending it was damn great:D
and then the concert ended with our encore piece. hahha anw as usual i cant hear anything from bass or alto but the singing was super nice:D and although i stoned alot too. hiyaaa too repetitive de song also not that great, plus i guess i only prac that song not even 20times:x
yup the concert was great, times with my guitar frens were great. why cant i treasure the time before and keep complaining about the rigour of guitar prac. now i miss guitar times, prac as a section, prac as an ensemble, all the laughs and awkward-ness and just everything. yes its really tiring and guitar did drain me alot of energy but it really helps me grow, learn how to play the guitar individually and as an ensemble and also gain me lots of great frens:D its a part of my journey now(:
and thanks to all my frens for coming down to support me and guitar and all the encouragement:D and of cos thanks for all the flowers, they are so pretty:D i think this is the year which i received the greatest number of flowers yet i think its my last time performing.
now that i have stepped down, kinda earlier than i expected, time to chiong academics which i promise myself to! hiyo so sad, now thats nothing for me to do other than studying. but im gonna rest well today, and prob on labour day too. rest well before stepping on another pathway of my life: mugging like mad for As D:
